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Twitter v. Blog

August 7, 2009

Ever since social networking has created in me the insatiable desire to reveal everything about my life to everyone (well, at least everyone with high-speed internet access), the only thing left to decide is what medium I will use to accomplish this. For a long time, it was this blog. Recently, as life, busy-ness, and yes, a bit of laziness set in, I have found great utility for an even more addicting, bite-sized, fast-food mass messaging system. Yes, I temporarily abandoned my blog for Twitter.

Twitter has it’s advantages. But the specific ones that won me over were as follows: It’s completely portable (sorry, but even I can’t tolerate punching out an entire blog on my iPhone), it really doesn’t require any obligation, and it makes stalking even easier, even welcomed. Most importantly it satisfies my craving for self-divulgence…with half the fat and calories! You know what I mean. Twitter is all the fun with less work.

Unfortunately, Twitter has proven itself a little too micro for someone as macro-mouthed as myself. The word twitter actually means “a short burst of inconsequential information.” Vertical measurements aside, there is nothing short about me, or more specifically, about the way I share information, inconsequential though it may be. I can’t tell you how many times I have tortured myself trying to cram my thoughts and happenings into 140 measly characters. Sometimes I can’t even get a sentence out in 140 characters. I am longwinded. It’s who I am.

On top of that, I think Twitter has taught me something about myself. It turns out I don’t just want to blab out tons of information about myself…I actually enjoy it. Writing is an outlet for me. I don’t just want to get the word out in the fastest way possible with the least amount of characters. I actually want to take time to write about things.

In short (haha), my constant snacking on Twitter has still left me hungry for something with a little more meat on it. So will I be abandoning Twitter like I did this blog? Nope. I still think Twitter has it’s place, just not as a replacement for blogging.

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Finally replacing my walkman…

August 6, 2009

Oops, I forgot about my blog again. Oh well, here I am. I’m sitting here trying to think of things to do on my computer because I am, for the very first time, importing music into iTunes.

Yes, you read that right. In fact I never even had an iTunes account before buying my iPhone in March, because I never had an iPod. I consider myself pretty much up to date with technology, but in this particular area, I am pretty much a decade behind. Truth be told, I can count on one hand how many CD’s I’ve purchased for myself in the past ten years (two were Carrie Underwood CDs, and I don’t remember the rest).

But somewhere between being in the car all the time, driving to places I can’t even get a decent radio station, falling head over heels for Pandora on my iPhone and realizing that it’s only as good as my 3G signal (which, if you’re reading this AT&T, needs some serious help in the Adirondacks…hillbillies need 3G too!) I have decided to import the CDs collecting dust in my garage to my iTunes so I can have them at my fingertips at all times.

You can imagine how dated this collection is…I’m pretty sure I used to belong to some sort of CD buying club (Columbia House maybe?) and the majority of my musical acquisitions were around 1996. So far there’s a LOT of Dixie Chick-esque country, a little Indigo Girls, Sarah MacLachlan…and a pretty sweet Fleetwood Mac CD. I have a feeling I’m going to be jamming down memory lane for many weeks to come!

The second motivator for this undertaking is my foray back into the world of running. The last time I recall being a consistent runner I very distinctly remember a mix tape *on my walkman of course) with various Jock Jams and other such energizing anthems.

In other news, Avery has her 9 month physical tomorrow (she’s turning ten months in a few days). I’m not sure why Brian and I still get excited about bringing her to physicals. I guess we’re still new parents and although we think our kid is fabulous and perfect we really like hearing an expert tell us that she’s fabulous and perfect.

That’s all for today. More tomorrow? Who knows…

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Hi

July 21, 2009

I miss blogging. I’m going to start again…tomorrow. In the meantime, here is a picture of Avery to wet your appetite. Although tomorrow’s blog is not about Avery, it is a big fat controversial blog, sure to make many of you angry and prompt lots of comments…what better way to return from my two month hiatus!

You’ve probably already seen this picture on twitter or facebook but I think it’s adorable so here it is again.

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No, that’s not a backdrop, that’s the real live view from Andy and Staci’s backyard! And the little hunk of cuteness in the picture is Jenn and Steve’s son, Drew.

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Roots

May 10, 2009

Today was my first mother’s day, and although the thrill of being a mom myself is amazing, I found myself spending a lot of time thinking about my mom, or “Mimi” as my neices call her. My mom just got home from spending the entire week in Florida with her mom, or “Gigi” as we call her (as in G.G., or “Great Grandma”).

Gigi lost her husband to cancer just a few months before my mom lost my dad to cancer. She’s been living on her own for five years now, with lots of family closeby to help out as needed, and keep her company (or should I say, enjoy her company…my grandma is hilarious, and loads of fun!). However, she recently received a diagnosis that prompted our family, herself included, to agree it was time to move her into an assisted living facility. So my mom, along with her sister, spent this past week scoping out possible locations, working on logistics, and ultimately just caring for their mom.

Like the great husband and father that he is, Brian gave me complete decision-making rights today…I got to pick where we went to lunch, where we order dinner from (he just suggested Juicy Burgers…I love him), and how I spent my afternoon while he watched Avery. As strange as you may find this, all I wanted to do was spend a couple of hours out front getting rid of a ton of weeds and a climbing rose bush that had disappointed me for two summers already. So he stayed in with her and I headed outside to do some work.

What a huge pain that rose bush was! The neglected condition it was in shows me that it had been there many, many years, and I knew there would be a lot of roots to pull up. I went to town cutting back all the brush first so I wouldn’t get punctured by thorns every five seconds. It filled one lawn bag about two thirds of the way and I thought I should start with a fresh one as I tackled the roots. I started with what I saw poking through the ground and followed it, destroying any ground that got in my way until I reached the end. About two hours and two full lawn bags later, I found myself about a foot into the ground and four feet from where I’d started.

I couldn’t help but think of how amazing this root system was. The span was unbelievable, the depth was surprising, and the volume of them was…well it was really heavy. I kept thinking about how even the roots four feet out from where the bush broke through the ground’s surface were integral in keeping it there. Or how many roots it took to hold the bush in place. I couldn’t help but realize how I paid so much attention to what I saw above the surface and often forgot about the amazing (and much larger) root system that supported it.

As I came inside after finishing up, and heated up a cup of coffee from this morning’s pot (something both Gigi and Mimi do!) I couldn’t stop thinking about the amazing women whose legacy I have the privilege of carrying on…the women who make up my strong roots. That includes my mom, her mom, and my dad’s mom. Women of God, women of prayer, women of strength and purpose. I am ashamed to say I sometimes forget how their lives are the very reason I am who I am today…they have supported me and been my life line.

Then my mind wanders to my daughter and the great things I hope to see her accomplish in her lifetime. I hope that I can be the kind of influence on her that my mom has been on me. And of all the great things I hope she does, all the things I hope she experiences, I can think of no greater ambition for my daughter than for her continue this great legacy of women in the Massey and Acuff families…for my baby girl to someday know the joy, the honor, the privilege, and the great responsibility that is motherhood.

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I wish I had pictures of Avery with BOTH of my grandma’s but for now, here is one of her with my dad’s mom “Dadaji.” Bonding with her granddaughter and her great granddaughter!

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I love these pictures

April 27, 2009

My little Paki Princess in training:

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More posts to come…my week will calm down Wed/Thurs. Still a little crazy right now!

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Vacation

April 20, 2009

Yes! I am on vacation! Which means a bit of a blogging vacation as well (as if I wasn’t already on one of those). But I am keeping up with the world (or, rather, allowing the world to keep up with me) with frequent tweets and the occasional mobile pic uploaded to facebook.

A few highlights thus far:

The plane ride was MUCH better than expected. When we went to bed the night before Brian looked at me and asked when exactly we decided that flying a six month old to the West Coast was a good idea. I told him he was crazy for worrying and she’d be fine. Inside, I was terrified. Fortunately, it wasn’t bad at all. Keeping her happy on the flight was much easier than getting around the airport (not to mention out of baggage claim, to the rental car shuttle, and into our car) with a stroller containing three carry-ons, a six month old in a baby bjorn, a hanging bag and three large rolling bags. We really need to learn to travel lighter, but in our defense, we had to pack for two weddings, three cities and 10 days of vacation. Anyways, she was fine and I only found myself walking up and down the aisle shuuushing her once in the 6+ hours we spent in flight. The secret? Lots of formula, a babybjorn and an endless supply of skymall magazines for her to shred to pieces.

And now we’re here, and the weather is hotter than it has been this time of year in several decades. God’s favor? I think so…it drops 20 degrees the day we leave. Some of my favorite things are my early mornings with Avery before everyone gets up; this morning she enjoyed a breakfast of Gerber baby oatmeal on the patio.

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And, of course, taking her swimming has been a highlight! We’ve done it three times already. Truth be told, she is pretty indifferent to swimming and probably enjoys bathtime much more, but I still take her, and she doesn’t hate it!

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Off to dinner in Laguna Beach!

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iLove my iPhone

April 9, 2009

I realized things were getting a little out of hand with my iPhone enthusiasm when a physical therapist at my appointment today asked “So how do you like your iPhone” and I, without taking a breath, responded “It’s changed my life!”

Truth is, it has! I couldn’t have given in at a better time. I needed something to get me through that last week of training, and now that I’m out in the field I would be completely lost, both figuratively and quite literally, without it. And my biggest hurdle, the cost, was rationalized because with this new HUGE territory I had to invest in a GPS anyways, so I just put the $$ towards the iPhone instead, and with Brian already on AT&T it will save us money long term to be on a family plan.

If you had asked me if I would ever get an iPhone when they first came out, I would have said absolutely not. First of all, I thought it was just an accessory, a toy if you will, that made people feel cooler about themselves because they could incorporate macs into their life even more. [Sidebar: I realized how effectively marketed I was when, the moment I picked up my iPhone, I felt instantaneously cooler. Am I that vain? I guess so. The coolness feeling has since waned, but it was pretty strong those first few days...even if all I was doing was playing solitaire.]

Another reason was the network…I have been a Verizon customer since I got my first cell phone (the Motorola StarTac…best cellphone of all time, for the record) and have often joked that I’m “Verizon for life” and would never leave. Well, apparently all it takes to lose a loyal customer is one bad business move (not partnering with apple to bring service to the iPhone) and one bad customer service person (whoever was working the day I called to say my thrice-replaced phone was not working…again. I even told them I was on the verge of switching. It doesn’t matter that I have spoken to like 50 good customer service people over the last ten years, or that I’ve been completely happy with Verizon up until the last couple months. Consumers have a very short term memory! That is a whole other blog post, but I digress…

So anyways, after several months of pleading Brian finally got his iPhone in January, and I started to think it actually did some pretty cool stuff. I was wrong. It does ALL the cool stuff. In fact, I would challenge you to find one thing (other than videos…and it will do that soon) that it can’t do! iPhones are not for super trendy metro urban people in skinny jeans…they were pretty much made for busy moms! You can do anything on the go…and with one hand!

For the most part I’ve used it for e-mail, twitter, pictures, calendar, to-do list, Googling, TONS of mapping with my new territory, and oh yeah, text messages and phone calls (sidenote: when I got it I had my e-mail and twitter set up in about 2 minutes…but it took me just as long to figure out how to make phone calls). And I will confess, I am becoming addicted to Sudoku, Freecell, Scramble and Chicktionary…I’m basically like a kid with their first nintendo…completely enamored!

So enough rambling from me. All of this to say, I thought $200 was a ridiculous price to pay for a phone. I will now eat my words (Brian thinks I should issue a public apology for months of mockery…this is as close as I’ll get!) because I actually think $200 is ridiculously reasonable for everything you get.  I hesitate to even call it a phone since that only accounts for about 25% of what I use it for! Just wait till Avery grows up…I’ve heard they can work wonders for occupying busybody toddlers, and you can’t put a price on that!

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Whirlwind

April 6, 2009

What a day! This was the big one…my first day really being back to work. Like getting up, getting ready, getting Avery ready, and getting us both out the door…that kind of back to work. All in all things went pretty well…actually let me restate that…considering how crazy things were today, I’m feeling very good about this back to work thing!

Let’s see, first I woke up not sure what I was supposed to do today since I have no samples, no concrete list of doctors I call on, no program to enter my calls into…not even business cards. But being a hardcore rep I figured who needs all that stuff anyways, all I need is me and my superior selling ability…oh yeah, and my boss told me go ahead and hit the road anyways. So I had to use a list of names and spend the entire day using my iPhone (more on this life-changing device later) to google physicians and then get directions. And then realize the address I’d found was wrong, and re-googling…let’s just say my iPhone did a LOT of work today!

Also making today interesting was the fact that Avery progressed from miserable to meltdown status…fortunately she has an excellent (and very patient) caregiver…as the morning progressed! To her credit, I think it had something to do with a combination of teething, a new environment, and being completely starving…my bad on that. By the way, I think breastfeeding is about over…I said I would do it for as long as it was working…I think that it is no longer working. More on that later. So anyways, she eventually (easy for me to say…I wasn’t there!) settled. But it certainly wasn’t an ideal first day for anyone involved!

So even with some mild craziness and some lousy rain, I got my 11 calls in (quota is 9ish), made dinner, made 2 weeks worth of baby food for Avery (it is my way of not feeling guilty for hopping off the breastfeeding train), and had loads of quality family time.

And that brings me to my original purpose for this post: this cute video! I feel like I say this every day but Avery is simply blossoming. Her little personality comes out more every day! And the verdict…she is hilarious! She had Brian and I laughing sooo hard tonight. She is pretty sturdy when sitting up now, and we were playing with her and somehow singing some random old song from the 90s (horribly off key, sorry) and she started doing this funny little boogie. [I have a short video of this, but when I uploaded it to youtube it is so dark you can't even see what's going on. And vimeo hates me. So maybe I'll get that video up later.]

As if we hadn’t had enough fun, then it was bathtime…something that she has recently discovered can include fun. She is getting better at splashing, and tonight we threw a rubber duckie into the mix and it was like love at first sight (and love at first bite…poor duckie, he didn’t stand a chance)!

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HOME stretch

April 2, 2009

I just finished my last exam and, although I haven’t gotten my grade yet, I think I might have actually aced it! Which is a big deal for me because, since I’m a perfectionist, I ALWAYS try to get a 100% on these tests. And although I always pass (defined as above 90%) there are always one or two questions that trip me up. I’m hoping this time breaks my streak of imperfection.

But enough about that. More importantly, I am 2 role plays, 1 long HR presentation, a “celebratory” reception, a last lonely night of sleep at the Marriott, and about 27 hours away from kissing those chubby cheeks and spending some serious quality time with my baby girl, my baby daddy, and of course, young Posh.

I am like a giddy school girl right now. I am supressing concerns over Avery not remembering me, or crying the whole drive home to Syracuse, and instead just looking forward to my absolute favorite thing in the entire world…hearing her coo in the morning and walking over to her room, looking over her crib, and seeing her smile and dance around and wait for me to pick her up! It won’t be long now…

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Where my girls at?

April 1, 2009

I’m not sure if it’s the long days or the fact that I just miss my family like crazy, but this round of training has been nearly intolerable. And the only reason it’s been “nearly” intolerable instead of “utterly” intolerable is these girls.

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These are some seriously fabulous women who I’ve had the pleasure of getting to know over the last two weeks. They are like me…they’re mommies (and mommies-to-be!), sisters, wives (and fiances!), daughters…and of course pharma reps! We met before classes even started, and have been joined at the hip ever since. We ride to class every morning (I am the busdriver because I have the minivan), we eat lunch in the cafeteria together, we study together at night, and we have a lot of fun in between!

These girls have brought me back; it’s like we’re in college. Our dorm is the Marriott. We wear our pajamas in the hall and leave our doors open to let eachother in. We get together to study, then we order take out, sit on the floor and giggle…and giggle…and giggle. Then someone walks by the room (Leslie’s room has become home base because it’s closest to the door where my car is parked…and because she has lots of candy) and they hear the giggling, and they join in.

We connect over everything from Access Hollywood, to the renin-angiotensin system, to missing our kids and worrying about our families. We have lots of differences (Leslie says diabetes funny…dye-uh-BEE-TEEEZE, MacKenzie calls her husband sugar britches, and Rebecca giggles like an eight year old), but we have more in common.

I’m aware that we may not keep in touch as well as we say we will. Except for Leslie…her blackberry is pretty much attached to her ear, and if that isn’t enough, she is quickly becoming a social networking junkie…I got her to start her own blog (just read a few lines and you will see why we get along so well) and twitter…during our Saturday morning computer training. But either way, I am glad I had to opportunity to get to know these fabulous girls and I will be better for it!

MacKenzie - Thank you for teaching me how to laugh and (try to) be sweet as sugar, and for making me realize that innocence is NOT lost in the world!

Leslie - Thank you for teaching me that there are really people out there who sincerely care about others more than themselves, and for giving me a great example of how to be an awesome mother AND friend to my daughter.

Rebecca - Thank you for teaching me that hope is very much alive and showing me what it means to NOT give up on love and to believe in real life fairy tales! (PS – Rebecca got her fairy tale last weekend…her prince charming flew up to NJ and surprised her with a proposal!!!)